Sunday, July 18, 2010

Memories

I really wonder what the memories we shared mean to you but to me, it is my precious which I'll always treasure. If anything, these photos are fragments of memories we once shared. Looking at these pictures, do you feel the same way that I feel?

20th September 2009 - The first time you were angry with me. That night you could not go out with me as your housemates wanted you to look after the house. I was so angry with the way they treated you and worried about how you had not had your dinner I just lost my cool. Eventually one of your housemates returned and I brought you out to dinner. :) I still remember how angry you were with me that night as you were so quiet. You told me not to worry as everything will be alright the next day. Sadly, things are not going to be alright this time round...

2nd September 2009 - The first time I took you to the clinics after telling your mum you were sick. I know you never liked me telling your mum stuff but I just cant help it at times as I know that she is constantly worrying about you and there are things she needs to know. I suppose it is a good thing I never found the Chinese physician :P I bet you would not like the herbal medicine. I still remember that night as vividly as yesterday. I had to drop you off at the clinic while I went to give tuition. That night, you waited for me at home. I felt a sense of relief that you finally saw the doc and ate your medicine. I still find it funny to see how shy you were that you did not dare have dinner :)

I think I wanted to give you a peck on your cheek while taking this picture so it ended up so blurry. That day we ended up taking pics using your webcam. You uploaded it and named the album "Mr Coffee and Miss Waffles" I wonder if you still have those pictures with you...

17th October 2009 - The first time I decided to cook for you. The only dish which I know how to prepare is spaghetti so I settled on that dish. Even got the tomato sauce from your place. You were my assistant while I cooked. That night we cooked so much that both of us couldn't finish it before going over to my friend's birthday party. That night was also the first night I saw you getting drunk after drinking screwdrivers which you thought was orange juice :P

One morning you complained we never took enough pics as a couple. We took a few shots and this was the best among them all. We looked so happy. I think we were really happy when we took this picture.

A pic taken by Justin after FYP in uni. Haha... I slept so soundly by your side. You were my safe haven that sheltered me from all my worries. You told me that I was really selfish when I asked you if you would come with me if I were to go elsewhere. To be honest, I asked that simply because I know that home is where the heart is and my heart is with you...
The pic taken when I went over to your place to take a nap after my group study for my finals. I can only find rest when I am with you. That afternoon, you teamed up with Ken to make Xiao Bai kiss me :( Now you have your own little doggy called Kobe...

During my hols, we were always together. If my memory serves me right, you had a "Malaysian Studies" test the next day and you were tired from o the studying. Wanted to go dinner after watching the HK drama but you were still lounging on your bro's bed. However, you looked so cute I couldn't resist but to give you a peck on the cheek. :)

A pic taken the day after Christmas. I never posted it as I thought we both looked ugly in this pic. Ok, maybe it is just me looks so.

That was the last picture I have of us. I suppose that is where the story ends. 2010 came and there are a lot of major changes in our lives. I found a job and I could no longer be with you as much as I did back then. Your mum fell sick and then she passed away. With my job at hand, I couldn't spend as much time as I could to console you and help you get through the sadness. Our distance started growing and my temper became worse because of the insecurity I felt. With that, the vicious cycle started and we grew apart until that day you told me that I no longer had your heart...

Life seldom gives people second chances and we cannot turn back time. Life has no "if" and I can only learn from the mistakes of my actions and pick up the pieces regardless of how much I wish to undo my actions... I suppose all that matters now is that you are happy...