Sunday, October 31, 2010

Deal or no deal...

Most people believe that the devil is the father of all lies and the deals made are definitely going to put you in the worst position ever... However, if the deal is not your soul but something else:

1) Your current life for your dream life. You will get your ideal life as you had pictured. The only catch, there is no going back to your current life.

2) Your memories and your feelings for a special someone as a trade off for whatever you wish for. You get to forget and get rid of the heartaches but you lose the memories.

So... Deal? Or no deal? :)

Regrets,,,

One of my favourite songs is "My Way" by Frank Sinatra... Regrets... I have a few... But then again, too few to mention. However, these few regrets have such profound impacts on my life I find them coming back to haunt me every now and then. Strangely enough, Loneliness is just staring at Regrets while Regrets is taunting me. There are times when the idea that to not regret is to be able to live with the decisions I've made and the actions I'd taken strikes me. However, how many of us are able to pull through? I wish there'll be a day when I do see that the path I've tread is the for the best...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Can loneliness kill?

Can loneliness kill a person? Maybe not. However a combination of regrets and loneliness definitely can. I wonder how many times I've died...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Feelings...



Feelings... Nothing more than feelings... Yet I realised that it is these feelings which I miss. It can be the same person doing the same things but the feelings will never be the same again. Maybe it is this feeling which we all seek rather than a person. Some couples which are together for years maybe still break up after these so called feelings are gone. I wonder if I will find these feelings again but I doubt I will. Slowly, I'm fading into a world of my own where no one can reach out to me...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Lalala...

Just feel like sharing this song tonight...

Friday, October 8, 2010

Lonely but happy...

For graduation, Mdm. Christina gave me a pen and a card. Inside the card was the message "... may you find much happiness, joy and love ... " I haven unwrapped the gift yet but I think the msg in the card is very much the best gift anyone can hope to receive :) Thanks Mdm !!! I know atm I am alone... Guess it is only natural to be lonely at the top... Nvm, never again will I depend on others for my happiness as past experiences only prove that others will just let me down... I only have myself to pick myself up and find my own happiness... :D