Friday, January 30, 2009

Lonely...

It is just another one of those days... Loneliness and pain are so intensely felt... :(
I really miss her now... At this moment how I wish I can call her and tell her "I love you and I really miss you."

Then again, I know that is not possible...
It is still very painful to know that I'm still here missing her dearly and for her, I was just someone who crossed path with her at a moment in time... :(


I just wanna scream it out " I LOVE YOU!!! Given the chance to hold your hand again, I'm never going to let you go..."

In the end, it's just me here... Alone and missing her...

7 comments:

Smultrontott said...

You're not alone. I've been there, I guess lots of people have, especially the sensible ones. Like it feels as if you're gonna miss this person every day and every night for the rest of your life (maybe even more?!). Crying and lying in bed, wishing you could hold this person again, watch their beautiful face, that matters so much to you. For me, it took a couple of months to get over these intense feelings.

Though I will always care for him, and I will always like him very much. I know how you feel, and I hope it's at least a bit comforting to know that it hurts less when you realize that you can make it alone. Though you are not completely lonely either. To build ones life on oneself and not on someone else, because if this person leaves, everything falls apart.

Arrancar said...

She used to be my world... I find it hard to detach her from my heart... I know by now, I'm no longer in her world but somehow I just find it so hard to let go... I keep myself busy... I try not to think about it... And yet there are just such moments when the memories come back to me...

Smultrontott said...

When everything around you remembers you about the past, yeah. This also decreases in time, but it's painful now. If you love her so much, please try to think that you wish her to be happy, even if it means that you can't be in her life, she'll at least be happy?

Arrancar said...

Yupe... That's what most people tell me. Time will heal but it really does put my patience to d test :( sigh...

VanessaJezamine said...

Hey Nick...don't be lonely.. You still have me for company...hehehe...

ps : but of course not during the 'time' of the month...LOL...

Arrancar said...

:) Thanks a lot girls. It's good to know that I ain't only got "Loneliness" as a friend.

LSY_J said...

Awww.....you were never this emo b4 when I first got to know you, remember? Anyways, regardless of whatever happened has happened, life has got to move on...Sometimes you are afraid and uncertain whether you should move way ahead of her or be left behind and be haunt by memories etc..Just know that time will heal you and also GOD knows every details. Hey..just be yourself back, one day for sure you will meet the right one. Read Michelle Vanessa Lee's blog. The one about love.....Hope u understand wat it means.
there is a say in chinese if u dare to pick it up, u should oso b able to let it go..