A note to my future lover...

And Valentine's Day has just passed. It was a day to celebrate love. Like how it has always been these 24 years, it was spent alone. I guess the day is really a mystery to me. Hence, I have decided to write this note - a note to my future lover...

To my dearest,

As I am writing this, I am wondering where you are, why does it take you so long to find me. Probably you are already trying your hardest but all this waiting is fast making me lose faith in love. Probably a lot of patience is needed to wait for someone as special as you. :)

I believe that being with you, everyday is a day for celebration. I wonder how you look like but I guess it doesn't matter much as you'll be the most gorgeous girl in my eyes since beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

I know I cannot guarantee that you'll not shed a tear but I'd do my utmost to cheer you up and put a smile on your face everyday. I won't be there for you 24 7 but I promise to be always be there for you when you need me the most.

Yours sincerely,
Nick

Counting down the days...

Seconds pass by and soon enough, Christmas 2010 is over and it will be 2011. Similar to 2009, the year has been quite a roller coaster ride for me. Seems like my wish to Santa didn't get to his mail so he better be making other people's wishes come true as he'd have the excuse of being too busy to have overlooked my wish... :) 2 more days before the dawn of a new year... I wonder if there is any miracle left this year...

Tin wood man

If you don't know who the tin man is, he is the character from the Wizard of Oz who wanted to have a heart. Here is the link for more info about him. To think that he could not love the one whom he had fallen for cause he had no heart is such a tragedy. Then again in my case, my heart is causing me so much more pain... I wonder how it will be like if I've got no heart like him.. To not be able to love the one whom I had fallen for. Maybe by then life would be much simpler and less complicated... :)

Some things never change...

Hard to believe that it's almost been two years. Just realised how much certain things have changed yet certain things still remain... It is such a strange feeling to realise how much I have been in denial. I know how life has moved on yet it still feels like I have not moved on at all - still back at that time, the time before 17th March 2009. :(

Space of my own...

I just wish to have a space of my own... Some space for me to breathe...

Workaholic...

Just the song to remind me that once this is all over, I should give myself some rest, have some fun and maybe venture on a new romance... :D

Deal or no deal...

Most people believe that the devil is the father of all lies and the deals made are definitely going to put you in the worst position ever... However, if the deal is not your soul but something else:

1) Your current life for your dream life. You will get your ideal life as you had pictured. The only catch, there is no going back to your current life.

2) Your memories and your feelings for a special someone as a trade off for whatever you wish for. You get to forget and get rid of the heartaches but you lose the memories.

So... Deal? Or no deal? :)