Intuition...

Intuition - a feeling you get about things that are going to happen. At this moment, I have an intuition that something bad is about to happen. The whole night, my heart has been aching. I wonder if it is a sign of things to come...

Sometimes, intuition may just be an accumulation of the past experiences which gives us a logical assumption of things to come. If that is the case, I wonder if my past experiences is the cause of my misery at the moment.

If I take action, will I be able to change the intuition I feel?

Tired...

Sigh... feeling so sad tonight... I just realized how tired I am of a relationship. Realized I have never ever got a word of comfort from you. Never heard you asking if I were tired. No matter how sad I am, you merely leave me alone. I really wonder if it is true that opening up your heart merely gives others the chance to break it...

Am I asking too much or am I merely too weak? Sigh...

An outlet for my depression...

It has been a really long while since I last updated my blog. Probably it's because I've been feeling fine and nothing much worth writing about. Lately, I have been feeling the brunt of the depression again. Just feel like my fire of passion has been doused, I just can't seem to be bothered to do much.

I am feeling really tired now. Wondering what's the point of trying so hard when it all amounts to nothing. In an incident that happened lately, it seems like my effort merely caused me to be despised. Sigh. Maybe it is such events that make me feel like this way. Why bother to try when it only causes more problems?

The weather has not been helping much either. It's always been gloomy these days. It is really hard to cheer up on a rainy day I suppose. I wonder if my heart has yet fully healed and it cannot really take another blow. :(

Sigh... Hope things will turn out to be better...

My latest obsession :D

As your can see, this is the latest addition to my PS3 games. Bought it in Jan to kill time while waiting for God of War 3 and Final Fantasy XIII but somehow I'm now hooked onto this game. It's a turn based strategy which does eat up a lot of my time. To be honest, I think too much time has been wasted on this game yet I can't seem to stop.

This game would be great for those with plenty of time to kill. As I've got myself a job now, the time I can spend on this game is very very little indeed. :( The level cap of the characters is 9999 and the characters can be reincarnated with their stats... :O

Well, a half arsed blog post about my half arsed game. Maybe I'll post about job in the next post. :D

Looking back 2009...

Looking back, 2009 has been a roller coaster ride for me. There were indeed a lot of ups and downs for me in the year 2009 - the emotionally unstable period in early 2009 due to the passing of my grandmother and a break up, the eventual success I had in finding part time jobs and also my studies to the depressing realization that my FYP is not gonna be finished on time and to find my new love :D during the second sem when I thought that all hope was lost :P

And today is New Year's Eve. To think that so much has happened in just a year, it is really hard to put my thoughts into perspective. Anyway, even today has a twist of its own as if to show me that my life in 2009 is to be full of dramas. If you noticed the pinkish patch on Sonia's cheek, it is just a symptom of her not drinking enough water and not a case of Rihanna and Chris Brown. With her parents coming over, it is really suspicious that she insists on putting on sunglasses to cover it up. The more she insists on doing it, the more it looks like a cover up of abusive boyfriend beats the crap outta girlfriend and girlfriend hiding it from parents -.-"

Well not sure how 2010 will turn out as it'll be a year I'll be finding my first job and a lot more uncertainties await me but I hope I'll manage to sail over it as smoothly as I had handled 2009 :D A better year awaits!!! Happy 2010 everyone!!!

Feel so lazy to blog these days. I will just share another song which reflects how I feel at the moment. Enjoy :)

A song dedication

And this song is for you...