Longing...

Sure feels quiet without you around... Wonder how you are doing now... :/

Answers...

I feel so hopeless... So tired lately... Sometimes I wish I just have the answers yet I myself don't even know... Sigh...

What? When? Why? How?

What is this feeling I'm feeling? I've only known you for about a month yet why do I feel this way towards you? I thought that such feelings have already been cast aside when I decide to lock myself in my own world. When did I let myself fall for you? How did you manage to slip past my defenses and slipped into my heart? Why do I feel sad of the imminent separation when I'd known that it would happen at the very start?

Goodbyes...

Air Supply - Goodbye by Augenblicke

Lately, I do feel like the current chapter in my life is coming to an end. There is so much separation which I need to deal with - a relative who passed away, a friend who is moving back to his hometown and a close friend leaving... Maybe the biggest joke of all is the possibility of me leaving... That'll be the time I've to say goodbye...

Loner

Loneliness is a strange feeling... At times, relationships can be so complex that loneliness just seems to be the best alternative. At worst, loneliness just makes the world around us more quiet. Saw a really meaningful quote from a forum - loners don't need love, they just need some warmth. When there is the opportunity for a relationship in front of you, how do you tell if it is warmth or if it is love that you need? Sometimes being lonely for too long just blurs the borders between the two... Maybe it's all the silence that surrounds us. Maybe sometimes it is best to just stick with the devil we know - loneliness...

A Song...

Sometimes the mixture of emotions is so unbearable... Can't find the words to describe my feelings but I guess this song will suffice...

Writing...

I realized it has been long since I last put much of my thoughts into words. I wonder if it's because I'm on my road to recovery or if I'm slowly becoming preoccupied with work. I guess I have always had an active imagination and what better way for me to let my creative juice flow than to put it all into words? :) However, looking at my posts, most of it are really dark and solemn ones. I remember posting a few happier posts. Haha... Happier ones really just a few... I did intend for this blog to be an open diary which I can use to see how much I've grown through the years. Maybe I have really intended for this blog to be a reflection of my dark and twisted side. It's the real me when I strip bare and put my feelings to words... Should I intend to write more or write less? If I were to write more, would it mean I'd be experiencing more sorrows in the days to come? I wonder...