Hypocrite

I wonder how long it's been since I last posted in here. Today I realised how much of a hypocrite I am. It was in the bus that I caught a girl staring at me. Most of the time I'd have shrugged it off but I suppose it was the way that she looked at me. It's as if she's trying to look into me. I quickly averted my gaze. Pondering this little incident made me realise how much a difference my heart and my brain acts. I've always told myself I'm independent and I'll be fine all alone. Yet, I suppose that is far from reality. I yearn to be understood yet at the same time I do not want to leave myself vulnerable. Maybe I have been trying to hard to convince myself to be someone I ain't. Maybe that's why the gaze scared me so much. I was possibly scared that she'd see past the mask that I put on and see me. By then, the reality that I've deluded myself into believing will shatter...

Time space...

For the past few days, I had this thought in my mind - the distance between two people is actually time. It is neither the physical distance nor the emotional distance. Time itself can bring two strangers closer to each other with each passing moment. Yet, two lovers might be drifting apart as the sands of time flow on. There are many things which are outside our control and time is one of them. What we ca do is just experience time. What separates me from you is the very fabric of time itself. She's still there in the future. I find solace in the fact that with each passing day, I'm one step closer to you :)