Gloomy is how i feel at d moment. Thinking bout the kinda decisions i have made and the actions i have made in the past i could not help feeling a little bit of regret. Once everything seemed all so rosy and beautiful but now after showing their ugly heads they just seem so fake. The song i would love to listen to at the moment would most probably be Frank Sinatra's "I did it my way". Quote from the lyrics: Regrets I had a few but too few to mention. Maybe the decisions i made really did not produce the kinda outcome i had expected but at least i did something. This is my only consolation from the mistakes i made. Rather than sitting there and doing nothing while waiting for something to happen, at least i did something to influence the outcome. Had i not taken any actions the outcome might have turned out to be the same as well. This would only add more to my regrets as i could have done something. One good example is one which happened earlier this year. For the sake of chasing a romantic dream i made a wrong choice and failed to see a near perfect girl near me and decided to go for one who is far away yet so unreal. When i woke up from this foolish dream my chance was already gone. But good for d girl she found herself a gr8 bf. I wish dat she will have a happy ending with him. I guess chances in this life only come once. If it is not treasured it'll just slip away. Yupe. That's it. I had at least tried to do something with my life. When the day comes for me to say good bye to this world i guess i won't have that many regrets knowing i have tried to do something on my part. Regardless of the outcome, I have took it in my own hands to play a part in shaping my own destiny. Hopefully, the actions and these feelings of regrets i have at d moment won't linger too long. :D
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Regrets...
Gloomy is how i feel at d moment. Thinking bout the kinda decisions i have made and the actions i have made in the past i could not help feeling a little bit of regret. Once everything seemed all so rosy and beautiful but now after showing their ugly heads they just seem so fake. The song i would love to listen to at the moment would most probably be Frank Sinatra's "I did it my way". Quote from the lyrics: Regrets I had a few but too few to mention. Maybe the decisions i made really did not produce the kinda outcome i had expected but at least i did something. This is my only consolation from the mistakes i made. Rather than sitting there and doing nothing while waiting for something to happen, at least i did something to influence the outcome. Had i not taken any actions the outcome might have turned out to be the same as well. This would only add more to my regrets as i could have done something. One good example is one which happened earlier this year. For the sake of chasing a romantic dream i made a wrong choice and failed to see a near perfect girl near me and decided to go for one who is far away yet so unreal. When i woke up from this foolish dream my chance was already gone. But good for d girl she found herself a gr8 bf. I wish dat she will have a happy ending with him. I guess chances in this life only come once. If it is not treasured it'll just slip away. Yupe. That's it. I had at least tried to do something with my life. When the day comes for me to say good bye to this world i guess i won't have that many regrets knowing i have tried to do something on my part. Regardless of the outcome, I have took it in my own hands to play a part in shaping my own destiny. Hopefully, the actions and these feelings of regrets i have at d moment won't linger too long. :D
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Mask
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Luck
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Shootings
<-- Cosplay Dude? Nope. I know i may have been a little bit slow in commenting bout this but i guess it is never too late. As most of you may or may not have known, this guy in the pic gunned down 32 students in Virginia Tech. b4 committing suicide. After this gruesome massacre, it is only then that ppl begin to take notice of him. At times i do wonder y is it that when sth like this occurs, the blame always falls on the shooter. It maybe true that the shooter could have chosen better alternatives to voice out his frustration to the world, but most of the time, the world has failed to listen to these people. IMHO, the society is at fault when a tragedy such as this occurs. What are the kind of perspectives have the society instilled in these murderers? Did they happen to go nuts n just went on a killing spree just because they have a knack for violence? Had the society been ready to listen to their pleas for help it would have been totally different. It is such an uncaring society that v live in these days that ppl who need attention need to take drastic measures such as going on a killing spree just to get the world to listen to their story. The world will never stop spinning for anyone but the society can stop to listen to the pleas of those in need b4 they've decided to forsake their own humanity as the society no longer have no humanity left to care for em. A person who has no more tears to shed has forsaken their humanity. By all means, i'm not saying the killers are heroes. It's just that at times they might have been a victim as well. This Korean student who killed the 32 students in VT, had been diagnosed with mental problems b4. Knowing he had such a condition, the lecturers and the uni still failed to take preventive measures just shows how sometimes some ppl are pushed to the limits. Are crazy ppl really crazy as v c em? I guess not. It's just that their logic of how things work is different from ours. In the Asian society, v have yet to hear of such gruesome killings by students yet but maybe it is just a matter of time. Firearms are hard to come by unlike in the US. No shootings doesn't mean v do not have such people amongst us. While coping up with the fast pace of life, maybe the society should just stop by at times to listen to the frustrations of its members. At least, with a little more attention and care shown, lives could be saved. By not listening, v have the blood of the victims stained on our hands... My deepest condolences to the families of the victims in the shooting. More reports on the killings.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Tired :(
Tired is what i feel these days. Suppose to be having a break to have a good rest and to catch up on my tutes but sadly that was not the case. Tied to my obligations for the debaters' club, I had to go back to uni from mon to fri. What's worse is that i go around 6 sth in d morning n only get home round 11 sth at night :( *sigh* sometimes did really wish that at the end of the day, there'd be someone special waiting for me, telling me everything is gonna be ok, giving me the strength to move on. But then again, i guess it will never be possible :( Just have myself to rely on, getting through everyday to prove to the world it can't get me down on my knees. It's been such a tiring week i din even have the energy to update this newly created blog. Finally the competition ended yesterday. Haha... Only then had this feeling of emptiness that o my hard work has finally come to an end. But it was one of the participants' comment which made me think it wasn't so bad after o n it was o worthwhile! Her comment was that after joining this competition hosted by my club she din really feel like joining the one hosted by the education dept. :D As this comp was my brainchild last year, such a statement was indeed taken as the best compliment d(^O^ )b What's more. I've heard of much hostility between schools when it comes to competition but having seen that most of the participants mingled well among each other and made new friends in this competition it felt really good. Guess I wasn't doing o d work for nth after o :D Wanna check out more on the event? Here you go : World Schools Debating Championship 2007.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Losing streak...

Monday, April 16, 2007
Stars...
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Family...
Well been hours since i made my first post. I wonder if i've some kinda attitude problems with my parents. Long ago, i remember it wasn't this way. I was able to share every single moment of my life with my mum to say the least. The kind of things i did in school. I felt at ease talking bout it n sharing it with her. However, after she moved into the menopause phase, everything change. It's like she was no longer the same gentle person i used to know. Anything that i said would've annoyed her. Well that's if it wasn't to her liking but that wasn't the case before. That's y after i've moved to uni, my relationship with my parents seem to drift apart. With o these work to be done i seldom call home. Thought if anything happened they'd call me. Anyway, parents moved back to kch last Dec. Maybe there is still hope for me to get closer to my parents? Not too sure.. Have had a few dinners with awkward silence at the dinner table. Dad did try to start a conversation but o i did manage were short replies. He gave up after a few tries. Poor guy... Do wonder if it is my own attitude problems.... Sometimes i just keep quiet during family outings just to annoy my parents but on nights like this, it hurts my heart even more to think i did such things. It's like there are two personalities in me. The Good and The Bad. Wonder in the end of my journey called life which side would win the war over my body... I wonder...
Saturday, April 14, 2007
First Blood
Yupe. Just drawn first blood on blogging with this post. First blog created. Well the idea of naming my post first blood came mainly from DotA (yeah i'm a DotA addict) and my fascination with vampires. Lately, with too much free time in hand, i've started following the manga entitled "Hellsing". Quite a nice manga with sadistic killing scenes by the "good bad vampire" Alucard. D story pretty much goes like this - lunatic survivors of the Nazi Last Battalion trying to create artificial vampires to proclaim a second war against humanity and Integra Hellsing (a descendent from Dr. Abaraham Hellsing) stopping em with her pet vampire Alucard ( the same old Dracula Dr. Abraham Hellsing staked in Dracula). Oh yeah along the way u get the usual fanatical Vatican Paladins who get in the way trying to sneak in a sucker punch to those two organizations - u get d picture... Well, the most appealing aspect of this manga is the part whereby the protagonists are able to kill when they need to unlike some sissy manga whereby every protagonist is a goody-two -shoes and won't kill even if their own lives are in danger (I call that pure stupidity not kindness). Oh well, that's all for a first post. Anypne who is intrigued by the story of "Hellsing" and feel like being part of the killing spree in it, i present to thee "Hellsing". Enjoy!
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